I haven't been writing much at all lately, as life has taken a turn for the busier in the last while and it's been all I can do to keep up with my 'regular' daily demands. I have been missing the practice of writing though, and will be doing my best to update this journal at least a couple times a week.
Not to suggest, in any way, that I am sad or stressed about being busy like this though. It's been magical, and continues to be. So many amazing projects and developments, and so many increasingly wonderful personal insights into my practice and healing.
I do feel that it is not only me that is going through this intensification of energy, however, as this same perspective is reflected by family members, clients and friends, echoing the busyness and relative chaos of their own lives. Things are on the move...
The world as a whole is moving within an intense amount of pressure right now, something which I know will only continue as we move closer to the ultimate 'change' of this current system. We all know that it has to change, we all know that it's coming and that things will shift (and have been shifting for a while) in a very profound way. And this is a good thing. I am no anarchist, per say, but I do welcome the breakdown of this dysfunctional way of existing on earth, even if that means I may live for many years without a hot shower. I know that at some point I will likely have the full spectrum of my modern conveniences removed indefinitely, and I'm okay with this, because it just has to happen if we're going to continue living here. It has to happen if we are going to succeed in being stewards of this beautiful place..
The area of my anarchist focus right now is in the school system--because of my heavy involvement in this realm lately-- and if you're living in BC you have of course been affected (in some way) by our provincial education strike. You know that this system seems so wrong and so dysfunctional, and yet here we are still trying to 'fix' it with a little bit of change to classroom size or paycheque amount. But this is not going to cut it, to put it lightly.
What is required within this system is not just tiny wiggles towards a more enlightened educational practice, but fundamental reassessments of the core philosophies of the entire thing. A radical questioning of why and how and what for when it comes to our children and their minds and lives, something that we have not done on a huge scale since this current system came into place. I do not believe in putting time and energy and concern into something that is obviously not working--like a really bad long term relationship that you just keep thinking might change if you just stick it out long enough--when there is something obviously more functional and logical being presented, and this is what we must do with our educational reform.
There is a chorus in a Fiona Apple song that I love very much, from Extraordinary Machine, and that speaks to this deep desire for change that often exists in opposition to our conditioned apathy and fear:
I certainly haven't been shopping for any new shoes
I certainly haven't been spreading myself around
I still only travel by foot and by foot, it's a slow climb,
But I'm good at being uncomfortable, so
I can't stop changing all the time
I notice that my opponent is always on the go
Won't go slow, so's not to focus, and I notice
He'll hitch a ride with any guide, as long as
They go fast from whence he came
- But he's no good at being uncomfortable, so
He can't stop staying exactly the same
I want change. I love being uncomfortable. And so I say bring it on. Bring on the downfall of this godforsaken empire, people, because it is killing us all, along with the phenomenal creatures that share this place with us. We are so sick, as a species and at our cores, and if something doesn't happen soon there's going to be very little hope for us to turn anything around. In fact I think we have certainly gone past the 'tipping point' in our destruction, but there is always the possibility of the miraculous.
Let us focus, on this day of solstice and powerful creation, upon the alternative, not wishing just for the chaos, but for the cleansing process that presents itself when something or someone becomes so sick that they just can't handle it anymore, uttering 'ENOUGH' in a manner that slows them down and opens their hearts just enough to start thinking that they might have the power to live in a different way. I've had enough, and I hope you have too.